I was pretty healthy as far as that goes. I played football, volleyball, did some gymnastics, all the fun things kids do when they're around 15-16. I guess what got all this started was when playing football one day, I got caught in a pile-up and ended up being carried home as my knee cap was on the side of my leg!! Not exactly where it's supposed to be. That curtailed alot of excercise for me. The next year I had my first knee surgery to repair the damaged cartilage, it ended up being so bad, they couldn't do it arthriscopic and now I have no cartilage in my left knee. I was still sorta active, but the knee made it easy for me to be lazy. Oh I can't do that i'll hurt my knee became something normal for me to say. Around this time I was wearing about a size 16 . I remember cuz when I had to go to the ER after the football injury they wanted to cut my jeans off of me, I threw a screaming fit and told them no way in hell were they cutting off my pants!! They were to hard to find as it was!! My jeans were saved, but it wasn't to long before they didn't fit anymore. When I graduated high school in 1983 I was in a size 18 and hit about 180, at 5'2 I didn't look disgusting. I could still turn heads, damn I miss that. But again, that didnt last long. Before I realised it, the 18's were to small and here came the 20-22's. Years passed by, and around 1991 I met my first hubby. I was back in an 18,, even had 1 pair of size 16 jeans that fit me, I wore those suckers til they fell apart!! By the time we got married in February of 1992 I had ballooned up into 26-28's,, oy. How did this happen? I really don't know. Being lazy, lots of nights in front of the tv with pizza or burgers. Not alot of activity, and lots of drinking. And we all know how booze treats your body. The end of summer of 92 I found out I was pregnant. 4 months pregnant, and didn't even realise it. I had been sick alot, but I put it towards the fact that I was in the heat all day delivering meals to senior citizens in a vehicle with no a/c. ugh . I was gonna be a mommy!! But I had the most horrid few months,, stayed sick all the time,, couldn't keep anything down and spent most of my time in bed. I had a check up in early december, Dr said everything was fine and sent me home. Dec 21 I started having seizures. My blood pressure had gone so high it wouldnt even register on the cuff. Imagine being a mother an receiving a call about your own daughter,, having uncontrollable seizures while being pregnant. That's what happened to my mama, she was a 911 dispatcher at the time. When the medics got to my house,, I was rapidly swelling,, they could literally see me swelling. They got me to the hospital and after having died 3 times in the ER, being injected with enough tranquilizers that shoulda killed me, but only calmed my seizures some, I was transfered to another hospital as they could do no more for me. A 20 minute ride to that hospital which normal takes around 45 minutes and a 7 minute emergency c-section,,, the seizures stopped. I had skipped pre-eclampsia and hit straight on toxemia. I was released 3 days later, to the amazement of my Dr, who at the time said I was the worst patient that he'd EVER had,,,,,,, that lived. Little one got to come home 30 days later. At our 6 week check-up,,, I weighed 220,,, I had lost around 60 lbs while I was pregnant!! I was amazed and thrilled! I thought this was my new lease on life. 2 years and a divorce later, i'm out on my own for the 1st time in my life having to cook for and take care of a toddler. She wasn't a picky eater thank God, as my meals were pretty much confined to shake and bake and mac an cheese!! Along comes Kenny!!Now Kenny is what I call an old fashioned cook,,, if it's not floured fried and gravied, it's not cooked!! Almost 13 years of that has gotten me to where I am today. In the last 10 years, i've been through the death of a best friend, my mama having 2 bypass surgeries, 6 weeks apart, a cancer scare, another knee surgery, my dad having a heart attack,, ANOTHER divorce, dayum, where does it stop?? It doesn't. I have almost every form of arthritis known to man, I have degenerative bone disease of the spine,,, which will not get better unless I have surgery,, BUT I can't have surgery cuz i'm ,, you guessed it, to fat.. Losing weight will help alot with that problem though. I thought I was eventually going to end up in a wheelchair. Back it up a couple years ago,,, seemed like everyone I knew that was fat was having gastric by-pass done,, friends and family alike,, with really great results too!! And I admire those so much for sticking to their guns and having a new life come their way. When I discussed this with my family, my parents went ballistic, and not for the reasons you'd think. In the last couple months before that discussion, we'd had 2 family members die on the operating table during gastic bypass surgery. The odds were there, and that was enough to freak my mama and daddy out. I didn't want to give my mama another heart attack, so I canned the idea. Now to the present, a few months ago I had gotten some information from a friend of mine about lap-band surgery,, which is becoming more common as time goes on. I had tons of info, had pretty much made up my mind. I had Dr's # on my desk all I had to do was call and see what steps I needed to begin the process. But for some reason, and i'm not sure why, I couldn't get up the nerve to call. I'm not even sure where those #'s are now.
This is my story, my honesty, my truth, thank you all for sharing it with me. My name is Teresa and i'm a fat chick.
I apologise for this being so long,, but then again,, it is my journal eh? LOL. To date i've lost a lil over 30 lbs. I did it on kimkins,, boo hiss yeah I know WHAT was I thinking?!?! Like everyone else,, I saw the pretty ladies, saw the drastic results and BAM,, joined up!! Thank God I didn't go to the extremes with it!! I still have my hair, and most of my brain,,lol
More later,, hugs !!!
yummy,, wonder if he's low carb? *whistles* awesome movie too,, I cried and cried at the end. 
It's good to be the mom!!
!! She can take away my membership,, keep me outa the forums,,but, she CAN'T take the friendships that were forged!!
Just take it one day at a time, one pound at a time. I know it's hard but you are so worth it. If you ever get too down, just go and look at your beautiful children. That's one of the things I do. I have 2, my son - 9 and my daughter -17. It reminds me what it's all really about. Give a yell if you need anything.
but soon!! I'll be happy dancin when I do,,lol
. I'm doing better now,, always did use butter,, hate margarine, rather eat the tub, and I love cheese, so I could never cut it out. Actually found some Sergento's (sp) at Sam's club yesterday,, it's REAL cheese, not the processed crap,, and it has 0 carbs!! Can you believe that!! Also they had boxes of Angus burgers,, 10 burgers a box for less then $8, I wish now i'd bought a couple more of em,, they're awesome!! Thank you ladies for all your support,, it means alot to me 
My step daughter is a real piece of work!! 
