Ok, I've set up the journal. Now to start posting. That will come later.

I copied this over from the journal I started on Kimkins:

I have never journaled before for more than a few days. I am hoping that will change here.

I joined Kimkins a few months ago when I saw it mentioned in People magazine. After reading through some of the posts, and looking at some fitday entries I didn't think Kimkins was something I would do. But I kept coming back and reading alittle more here and there. Then I saw the article in Woman's World so I started giving it some serious thought. My therapist told me I had to decide what I was going to do and COMMIT to it. Well it took me about 2 weeks and I decided to JUST DO IT and here I am!

I am 45 years old, happily married to my best friend, with 2 awesome kids: my daughter is 25 and my son is 23. My highest weight ever was 248 about 5 1/2 years ago. I started Atkins and walking and I lost about 34 lbs. Then dh and I went on our first real vacation, just the 2 of us, and I tossed Atkins out the window. Slowly the weight came back on until I stepped on a scale in January and I weighed 245. After several false starts trying different things: WW points, Atkins, LA Weight Loss, SlimFast, etc. (by false start I mean I was not really committed.) I gave in to any excuse to eat what I wanted at the time. I did this even knowing that low carb is the best for me . . . . I feel so much better, I lose weight when I stick with it.

Last Saturday, I decided I would do the old "I'll start Monday" and this time I actually did! My weight Monday morning was 237.4. My weight this morning was 230.4. I am not losing as much as many do but I am very happy with a 7 lb loss already. I am not going to compare myself to what others have or haven't lost.

We went on our first cruise last December to the Eastern Caribbean and when we booked our cruise for this year before we left the ship I told myself and dh that I was going to lose weight. Here it was the end of July and I had lost only a few lbs. I had to do SOMETHING!

I am the kind of person when I fully commit to doing something I can do it. But I have to FULLY COMMIT. I was a full fledged pepsiholic for years. I tried quitting but never made it more than a day or two. Finally about 5 years ago I COMMITTED to it and have not had anything other than diet soda since.

I tend to ramble on and jump from topic to topic (hence the name of my new journal! so I think I will close for now. Hope to be back soon.

You're doing great, Robin! Looking forward to more posts here in your journal.

Ok, to continue with my thoughts (ramblings). While reading posts on KK I saw one from someone who said they ate 1000-1200 calories a day and they lost weight. That helped me to start KK after thinking about it for months. And I was doing well. But I was not doing KK. I posted my cheat free thingy and changed it every day. I started a couple of small challenges. I was losing weight and I was loving it. Then the controversy started. And 3 people who were such a core part of KK were gone. Then more were banned or they left on their own. I have to believe in something to commit to it. And integrity is very important to me. I believed that Kimmer had lost all the weight and successfully maintained the loss for 5 years. Maybe she has? But because she continues to hide from the public I sincerely doubt that she has. In the meantime I read the blogs of 3 brave, honest people who had loads of integrity. And I was saddened by what happened to them. And I was saddened because I liked my little challenge groups. I wanted to continue the support I found at there and I wanted to continue to learn from others. Then people were getting banned for expressing their thoughts and opinions. Freedom of Speech is protected by the First Amendment (everywhere but KK apparently?). But then I realized that I, too, in part was a fraud. Because I was never actually doing KK. I was doing Atkins and counting carbs. My cheat free ticker was my way of counting the days that I did not eat candy, Big Macs, or other sugar, flour, fruits, etc. I put a link to My Daily Plate but then removed it after someone looked at it and told me I was eating ok except for the ham. And when I got the results from my blood tests back I was excited and posted the results all over. But they weren't due to KK . . . . but to the WOE I had been doing that was more Atkins. This rambling probably doesn't make sense. So I asked myself: why stay on a forum that was led by someone who was misrepresenting themself . . . . . . especially when I felt I was misrepresenting myself when I wasn't really doing KK.

This was my post re: lab results: Thumbs Up from Dr!
Ok, I went to my Dr today. He said whatever I am doing to "keep it up". I showed him what I had been eating, how many calories, fat grams, carbs, and protein. He said he didn't see anything wrong with the way I am eating, what I am eating, etc. He did suggest that I eat at least 800 calories per day and to stay between 800-1000. He said 1000-1200 at first then said that 800-1000 would be ok as long as I felt ok, etc.

I am a diet controlled diabetic - all is good there. And my cholesterol (has never been a problem) is 80. My HDL is a little lower than it should be (25); it should be 39 or higher. Triglycerides were 88 - should be below 150, and LDL is 37 (should be less than 100). UPDATE: The Dr's office just called and said that my A1C was 5.8! Which means that I no longer shows signs of diabetes! (9/13 1155am)

I don't have the inner anxiety I had at KK because I wasn't eating "on KK plan", because I felt betrayed because I bought into the story of the huge weight loss and maintenance of the person behind KK.

This forum is so much nicer, calmer, more accepting. Here there are posts that really make me think. Like the one from melodygale about how do you see yourself? That one has had me thinking all day.

My first personal mini-goal was 213.8 so that I would be under 214 which was my previous lowest weight in many years. Today I reached my mini-goal with a weigh-in of 213.6! My next mini-goal is 199 - ONEDERLAND here I come!

I am re-reading DANDR. As I read it I've realized that I don't think I actually read the whole book last time. I just jumped to the part about what to eat and what not to eat.

DH is working on changing his eating habits altho I don't think he'll be going low carb anytime soon. But he is making better choices. He has about 10 lbs that he needs to lose.

I keep bringing low carb up to one of my sisters. She keeps saying she can't live without bread and pasta. She is a pharmacy tech and she talks to the dietician at her hospital and then she comes back and tells me it is not healthy. I even bought the book "Life Without Bread" and mentioned to her that the books mentions that low carb would help her with her gastrointestinal problems. I am going to back off for now. I'll bring it up now and then and maybe she'll come around.

I asked Jimmy to change my username to Robin M from secondthoughts. It seems more personal. I didn't want to use the same username as I had on KK because altho I really like it . . . . . I decided I would just leave it there and start over fresh!

I like your name, Robin! Don't change a thing!

As for the naysayers, they're always gonna be there. Even after I've lost my nearly 200 pounds and kept it off for four years, I STILL have people telling me how unhealthy and dangerous this way of eating is.

My question back to them: "When are all these bad things supposed to happen to me?"

SHUTS 'EM UP!

Thanks for the congrats over on the challenge thread! It's taken me a LONG time - I've been working on my weight loss for 7 years. That's one of the reasons KK sucked me in. I lost weight so fast doing it. But in reading your journal I realized I too wasn't REALLY doing KK. I was eating things all the time that were off plan - mainly in the meat category (bacon, sausage, hamburger) and feeling really guilty about it. I never posted what I was eating because I didn't want anyone criticizing my choices.

One other thing I noticed from your journal - fellow diabetic here . And BTW, I also changed my username when I came over here. I wanted to leave it all behind too.

You'll get to ONDERLAND before you know it and we'll have a party!

Hi Robin! It's good to have you here. I'm from kk too only I did the diet exactly as written. And my calories were way too low. But I'm working on that.

I hope you enjoy it here.

Robin, love your thread title and your avi....welcome. I still haven't started a journal yet, know I should, but not real good blabbing about myself and my weight loss. I would help I'm sure...so maybe one of these days. You are doing great!

Hi gracieanne, Yes I liked the quick weight loss on Kimkins. But I was also very leery (sp?) of the low calories and low fat. I did Atkins about 3 years ago and lost 34 lbs. But went back to eating carbs on vacation. This time I am looking at it differently. I am looking at it as a WOE for life. Even when I was on Atkins before I wasn't as strict as I was when I started Kimkins. I have 46 days of no carbs (processed, sugar, etc) and for me that is a record! So even tho my weight loss has slowed down in the last couple of weeks I am still losing and that makes me happy. Ok, I am excited about a party when I reach ONEDERLAND! It looks like you are close to goal (29 lbs) . . . . . and I am about 14 lbs from ONEDERLAND . . . . maybe we should wait and have the party when you reach goal! Or we could have 2 parties!

Hi Ginger, I have found that since leaving Kimkins I still have days of low calories. I am trying to eat more fat but in the short time I was doing Kimkins, even tho it wasn't exactly as written, I was eating less calories than I have have. Yesterday I was at 569; today was better at 974. Since starting Kimkins on 7/30 my average calories are 854. However, I went to my Dr last week and he said that 800-1000 would be ok for me. We'll have to see.

Hi katinsac, thank you . . . . I think the title works for me because I can ramble on and switch subjects like you wouldn't believe! Kimkins was my first attempt at a journal. I like being able to write (type) down my thoughts, etc. If it is read by others that is great . . . . if it isn't that's ok, too. I guess the anonimity (sp?) of it helps me to blab on about things I may not tell others in person.

I am banned from Kimkins. For posting links to Becky's, Deni's, and Christin's blogs. That's it, that's all I did. About 20 links in different places . . . . I did not say anything about Kimmer or Kimkins, etc. If I would have known that posting those links was enough to get be banned I would have definitely said MUCH more. Oh well, it is done. I feel as tho a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.

I feel betrayed and I was only there a little over a month. I can't even begin to imagine how Becky, Deni, Christin, and Jimmy must feel (other than what I have read in their blogs.) As well as many others who have have been there for awhile. At first my thoughts were: to each their own . . . . most were adults and capable of choosing to stay or go. But the more I thought about it the more I realized that the lure of quick weight loss was like a drug . . . . euphoric, mind-bending, hard to walk away from.

On to better forums and a healthier WOE.

I have been on here off and on since about 8am (maybe even earlier???!!!) I need to get a life!

I did leave for about 5 hours during that time so it's not like I was on here for the entire time! DH wanted to go to the fair so he could eat all of the bad food he likes! I had a cheesebuger no bun and then later on DH and I shared some grilled shrimp (which reminds me I forgot to add the shrimp to The Daily Plate!)

I just received the following PM from the Kimkins site:

Why have 1 party when you can have 2? Besides you'll reach ONDERLAND long before I reach goal. The closer you get to goal the slower you lose.

I also want to say I really admire you for posting the links to the blogs. I walked away from the KK site but I haven't been banned. I never posted anything 'controversial'. I've thought about doing it several times, but never have. For a while I was still stopping by once in a while to check things out, but the last couple times I did the posts were so appalling I wanted to YAK, so I haven't been there for over a week now. This is a MUCH nicer place to be.

Good Morning gracieanne,

I agree, 2 parties are better than 1! What part of the country are you in?

I started thinking about that (posting the links and wanting to post more) and decided just posting the links was good because that way anyone who wanted to read them could and at the same time the posts didn't contain alot of negative b.s. that is already rampant everywhere else. And besides Becky, Deni, and Christin expressed themselves very well in their blogs.

Yes, this place is MUCH nicer. And Jimmy is very involved in the forums, and a REAL person who has lost alot of weight with low carb.

Also altho they may have deleted many of the posts there is a good chance that alot of them got forwarded to people's email. I was banned but I am still getting PM's. I did what I could!

I noticed that you have lost another lb - WOO HOO. For some reason I was down exactly 1 lb, also. It has been slower lately for me: .02 or .04 lbs at a time. Not complaining - just wondering! I'll take it!

*PINCH*

OW!!!!

Yep, I'm a real person alright.

I'm in Iowa. Where are you?

Woohoo - it's a 1 lb. party!

I am in Idaho. People have confused it for Iowa!

Let's hear it for the 'I' states!

I set up my first ever blog. If you are interested stop by and take a look. I would appreciate any contructive criticism you have to offer!

http://randomthoughtstwistedthreads.blogspot.com/


P.S. I am working on getting the picture below smaller so that it doesn't jump in your face whenever I post.

Your blog is DA BOMB!

Hey Robin,

Good luck with the blog. It can be fun and good therapy too.

I wanted a pic of my wonderful DH on here but I couldn't get it small enough to post in my signature - so here it is!

SURPRISE, Robin! Got your adorable pic in your signature now. Ain't I good?

Jimmy, thank you very much! You are good! The best! I like your new avatar! Also really like that you have posted your before and after pics in your signature. A real person AND the same person! Imagine that!

Again,

That's why I wanted to put them there--NO DOUBT I'M REAL, right?!

I am re-reading Dr Atkins New Diet Revolution. I realized that when I did Atkins 3 years ago that I never read the entire book. If I had I probably wouldn't have quit eating low carb.

I am still losing weight. At a slower rate but it feels so much better! The 6 weeks I did Kimkins I had this little devil sitting on my shoulder telling me it was not healthy. Yes, quick weight loss drew me in . . . . but not at the expense of my hair and my health.

I have accomplished my first mini-goal which was to get below 214 (my previous lowest weight from doing Atkins 3 years ago.) I am .02 lbs away from accomplishing my 2nd mini-goal which is to lose more than 34 lbs (what I lost 3 years ago!)

My other mini-goals are:

199-Onderland
180-so that I weigh less than DH
170-what I weighed when I got married 13 years ago
150-current goal weight altho this may be adjusted down to 130-140 as I get closer.

The difference now with eating low carb and losing weight is: This time it is not a diet, it is a WOE for the rest of my life. And I do not talk about "if" I lose weight . . . . . it is now WHEN I lose weight because I am fully commited to losing weight and being healthy.

I had breakfast with my mom yesterday (I had 3 scrambled eggs with broccoli, bacon, and cream cheese-it was the best!) She needs to lose weight as well. She was asking me some questions so I offered to let her read one of the 3 DANDR books that I have. I am excited that she is considering it.

People are just starting to notice the weight loss - mostly in my face so far. And as mentioned in other posts here . . . . I do not handle compliments well. I am trying tho and working on it with my therapist.

I am not doing this to be noticed . . . I am doing this for me.

We moved into a new house the end of May and I have a huge walk-in closet. Lately tho it is getting pretty empty! I have had some clothes in there that "almost" fit . . . waiting for me to lose a few lbs. I've tried most of them on in the last week and they are TOO BIG!

Altho my wardrobe is getting limited I am lovin' it! All of my pants, shorts, and capris are loose, too. I am waiting to buy new clothes for awhile. I own a womens clothing consignment shop so I am lucky that I can find "new" things that fit for reasonable prices.

Just before I started on low carb I had bought 2 pair of Capris for $69 each. And they already don't fit me. I absolutely hate paying that much for clothing (which is why I own a consignment shop!) especially when I knew I was going to be losing weight.

I also spent over $200 in Canada on new clothing about 2 weeks into low carbing and those do not fit me either! Hence my Hottie name "Loves2Shop!" I can sell them in my shop but I won't get as much as I paid for.

Because I am determined and committed to reaching my goal weight I am cleaning my closet on a regular basis and immediately donating or consigning anything that no longer fits because it is TOO BIG!

I am lovin' life and lovin' low carb! I've said it before and I'll say it again . . . . this is the first time I have ever been so sure that I am going to reach my goal. I have no doubts. I cannot wait to be a low carb success story! I cannot wait to look at my before and after pics side by side!

Just some more random thoughts about my new WOE.

When I saw my Dr 2 weeks ago (still on Kimkins) . . . . I showed him a spreadsheet showing my calories, fat, carbs, and protein each day and an average of all days together. It was approximately 950 calories a day on average. He told me that I should stay between 1000-1200 calories a day then he amended that to 800-1000 would be ok. Which is what I wanted to hear . . . . I wanted his ok to do 800 calories . . . . .

Within days my infatuation with Kimkins evaporated . . . . and I was left floundering on my own.

I have a home here now and am learning so much. Altho I did Atkins 3 years ago I didn't read the whole book and I really didn't know much about it. I got caught up in the processed (premade) low carb foods and the "Atkins is BAD for you" mentality I kept hearing and eventually went off plan.

Altho I was on Kimkins for just 5-6 weeks it seemed to affect my thinking. I decided to add more fat into my daily menus but was panicked at the thought of my calories going above 800-900. Ad they did . . . . . and I lost weight anyway. I keep reading that calories should be at a minimum of 1200. And then I think about my Dr saying he approved of Atkins . . . . . . and I should stay under 1200 calories (at the most.)

For the last 7-10 days my calories have (for the most part been about 1000-1100.) Yesterday they were 1369 and I panicked. I want so much to reach goal . . . . . I AM going to reach goal. But I want to make sure I am doing it the right way.

After starting Kimkins I looked up the calories, etc. for my "normal" lunch and found they were:

Calories: 1130
Fat: 60
Carbs: 117
Protein: 31
and that was only lunch! Add my nightly snack and the calories went to 1290, fat: 62, CARBS: 142, and protein: 31. And that didn't include breakfast and dinner!

I am still reading DANDR . . . . completely reading it. I will continue to read everything I can here to help me learn and stay on plan. I feel so much better since my calories are around 1000-1100 (even 1300). I will add fiber to my spreadsheet so that I can count "net" carbs . . . altho doing so makes me a little leary (sp?).

You're doing so AWESOME now, Robin! YOU GO GIRL!!!

Don't worry about "net" carbs with fiber...it's totally legit. Sugar alcohols are another thing, but fiber is completely subtractable. Is that a word? Well, it is now!

Integrity
When you respect, treasure and maintain it, it can bring enormous value to whatever you set out to accomplish. It is your integrity, and it is very much worth the effort you spend to keep it intact.

For if you compromise your integrity to get ahead, you'll severely limit how far you can go. If you give up your integrity in exchange for anything else, you will always be on the losing end of the bargain.

The compromise of integrity is its own worst punishment, and is a price that is never worth paying. The worth of integrity cannot be calculated, because it adds value to everything you do.
There will come moments when you'll be tempted to take a shortcut, moments when it will seem foolish to hold on so steadfastly to your integrity. But deep down you know that the day will come when that integrity will be worth far more to you than anything for which you could trade it away.

One day you'll reach a bridge that can only be crossed if your integrity is intact. One day you'll come upon an opportunity that can be yours only if you have arrived at it with integrity.
Live each moment with integrity, with whole and genuine positive purpose. All the while you'll be building something of real, lasting value.
-- Ralph Marston

Wow! This forum is getting to be so big. I am having a hard time keeping up.

There is a post titled "Being Obese & Putting Life on Hold" - what a great topic. It's really had me thinking. So much so that I couldn't begin to put it all down on paper (online or otherwise!)

Life is getting better each day. I still have a long way to go weight wise and living wise. For so many years it was so much easier to be an alcoholic or a fat person because no one expected anything from you. I started therapy so that I could learn why I would lose 20 lbs and then stop over and over again. Finally I am making progress!

I am now in a position in life where I have to quit hiding. We own 2 businesses - one that was existing and then mine which I opened from the ground floor. For almost 3 years my therapist has been trying to talk me into going back to college and finishing my bachelor's and getting my master in counseling. He says because I left a physically and mentally abusive relationship and successfully overcame drug abuse and alcohol addiction along with my empathy and intelligence I would be a great therapist. He said even more so now that I have started on this journey to weight loss and health. He see so much more in me than I do . . . . but I am working on it.

It is something I would really like to do . . . . . . but I have to take it slowly. If not I will be overcome with self doubt . . . . . . and that is what led to the carb and alcohol addictions in the first place! For the last 2 years I have applied for admission to college and for the last 2 years I didn't go. I have applied again to start in January. But I keep thinking of reasons that I shouldn't go. Dumb reasons, yes. Each day that passes I tell myself I can do this. I will do this. I will lose weight and reach my goal. I will go back to college and get my bachelor's degree and possibly even my master's degree. Heck I may even be a therapist in the future. I can do this. I will do this.

I have to work on getting more fat added into each day. I will look over my Daily Plate journal and see what I can do. I am getting more calories (1100-1300) and my carbs are staying at 20 and below . . . . but my fat is running neck and neck with my protein. I need to read some more of DANDR.

I let my mom borrow my book as she was asking me what I was doing to lose weight. At the beginning of the year she weighed less than I did. But she has been putting on weight and I have been losing. I think I first noticed when I was taking the clothes that were too big into my consignment shop and she was buying them! I told her if she wanted anything I'd brought in she could have it she didn't have to buy it!

At lunch today at the hospital she got a salad and she kept it all Atkins! She started to go for the low fat ranch and I told her she should have regular ranch. I am not sure how far she is in the book. I told her that Atkins was a WOE for life and not a "diet" and that if she really wanted it to work she had to commit herself to doing it from here on.

My sister needs/wants to lose weight, too. But she says she can't live without bread and pasta. And she says the dietician at the hospital where she works says "Atkins is not healthy." I said compared to what? Sugar loaded fat free foods???

Hi Robin,
Since you were so kind to drop by my place yesterday I thought I'd return the favor.
I have to say that after reading your Journal I found myself wondering about your Doctor.
For some reason he couldn't agree on the right amount of calorie intake for you & stick to it. Instead he kept changing it & I have to tell you that keeping it under 1200, is too low in my book.
Atkins isn't about counting calories as much as it's about counting Carbs, we CAN eat good Fats and beef~so of course your Calorie count will increase.

Let's think about the fact that in order for each one of us to get as big as we did, we were probably consuming 5000 to 6000 cals. a day if not more. We weren't worried about the amount then~so anything lower then what we were eating is going to cause a weightloss. The amount of calories in all the Sugar-laden Junk alone would have added up to more then 1200 calories ~~ easily.
They were Empty Calories, of no value what so ever!

I believe there are some Dr.'s out there that will tell you exactly what You want to hear, just so they can move on to the next $56.00 dollar person in the room down the hall (what some doc's charge for an office visit here).

Look at Jimmy, ~~(stop laughing Robin that's rude)~~
He back's 1200 cals. a day, but then he's a guy & we all know Guy's lose more weight & faster then we do.
But my point is, You HAVE to Eat in order to Lose Weight, if you go too low your body goes into Starvation Mode and holds onto every ounce it can.

One thing in your Journal that you kept repeating and so it got DRILLED into my head~LMBO~ ~was:
"You weren't really doing KK because you were adding extras & still losing weight".

So my question is:
Then why are you making it so hard for yourself to commit to Atkins, if you were NOT doing KK's WOE anyway????

None of us can have a Future ~~IF we continue to Live in the PAST !
It's OVER, we Can't change it~~but, we can make Good choice's TODAY that will insure, we'll have a Great TOMORROW !

I am a good Judge of Character and after reading your Heartfelt words, I can Honestly say that ~~
I want you to Believe in Yourself as Much as I believe in You !
You can do this Sweetie~ We All Can !!!
Respectfully, Su

Today is a new day and KK is in the past. I have vented, posted, blogged all I am going to about it.

No regrets, just lessons learned.

Su, Thank you so much for visiting my home! You are probably right about my doctor. Good question, Su, about why it is so hard to commit to Atkins. I do not think it is hard . . . . . when I did Atkins 3 years ago I did it pretty much the same as I am doing now . . . . except then I was just counting carbs so I didn't know how much protein and fat I was eating. And I was losing at a steady pace.

I have learned several things about myself in recent months.

One of the things I have learned is that I am a PLANNER . . . . and not a doer! I would plan to start a new diet; I would get the book, buy the food, plan menus, set up spreadsheets. And that would be it! I might do the diet for a day or 2 but that would be all.

Which leads me to something else I have discovered. I am a perfectionist . . . . if I can't do something perfectly then I don't do it at all! SO after planning the new diet and doing if for a day or two . . . . if I strayed from the set plan in any way . . . that was it. Diet was over!

There are some exceptions to this. I planned my clothing consignment shop and followed through on opening it. It has undergone change from the inception . . . it was not perfect to begin with and it is not perfect now. But it is evolving and it is successful so I am doing something right!

I also find that I enjoy challenges (actually this is not new, I've always known that!) and once I master something or figure it out I need a new challenge. DH says he's surprised he's still around!

I have changed things tho . . . . as far as my weight loss . . . . I am doing it! And I will continue this WOE for the rest of my life. Altho my eating won't always be perfect I will continue on my journey to health and weight loss. I do not allow myself cheats (sugar, flour, etc) because I know my triggers and I know my addictive personality.)

Hey Robin!

After reading your journal, I find we have alot in common. I also didn't finish college but have tried to go back several times. I'm also a perfectionist who will not do something if I think it won't be perfect. And I'm also a planner but not a doer! And, I started at 240 lbs and am now at 198 lbs.

That's great that you have a consignment shop. I wish I lived close because I have nothing to wear since I lost this weight!!!

Ginger,

Many of your credits may transfer. I was surprised that so many of mine did. I am starting to get really excited about it. I have been putting it off for years but now that I have decided to go for it I am really looking forward to it. Patience isn't one of my better qualities - but I am working on it! It helps that my own therapist thinks I'll make make a good therapist!

Robin

P.S. I am 5'3"

Adding more fat . . .. . losing more weight!!! Down .06 lbs this morning!

I had a friend tell me once (when I was doing Atkins the first time) that in order to lose weight a person had to be hungry. (SHATT - Semi Hungry All The Time???? ). We didn't agree . . . . .

Once I reach goal I am going to create a card with Slim Fast, carrots, and turkey, with "Your Diet" wriiten underneath it on one side. On the other side I am going to put bacon and eggs, rib eye and veggies, with the words "My WOE" - and then across the bottom I am going to write "Any Questions?!" She is still drinking Slim Fast and carrots, hating every minute of it, losing the same 20 lbs over and over.

UPDATE: Gramps is doing better than ever.

Be strong, Robin! We are here for you as an extended family when you need us.

Robin,
My heart feels for you and I know it's hard, but Your Grandfather looks like a very strong man. He has lived a long time and has touched many lives. He is tired now & you all have to let thim go and be with God. We cry and say we don't want them to go, that is being selfish on our part. If he tells you he's ready to go "HOME" tell him it's alright for him to go. He'll be witout Pain and in a Better place. He'll NEVER leave you, as He'll live in your Heart & your Thoughts. You'll cry because he's no longer in your life, but what you really have to do is be Thankful for the time He was in your Life. Be Positive and Believe that He'll never be farther away then your Heart! I know, I was holding my late Husband's hand & telling him how much I love him and that it was okay for him to leave~~when he took his last Breath. He took part of me with him~~but he left me with so much more!
God Bless you Sweetie~I'm here for you 24/7. Luv ya, Su

Jimmy & Su,

Thank you for your kind words.


On a good note: I've lost another lb. It appears my weight loss is again heading in the right direction (rather than being at a standstill!) I'll be in Onederland before I know it!

Thanx again!

Robin

CONGRATS TO YOU ON LOSING THAT PESKY LB~~WOOOOHOOOO !!!

On a more serious note Robin,
Letting someone GO is THE hardest thing we have to do. I would recommend that everyone put his mind at ease and tell him it's okay for him to go be with GOD. He's Tired & his Body is Weary, Please ease his mind from worrying if Ya'll will be alright without him so he can Stop trying to hang on for your sakes. It just prolongs his Pain & Yours.

I had to tell my late Husband that he had given me Strength~~and because of that wonderful gift he gave me, I would be Strong enough to move forward. I told him I would always feel his Love around me, but that I wanted him to relax and go be with the Loved Ones waiting for him.
Right after I did that Robin~~he gave a Gentle Sigh and went to God.
I felt sadness that he wouldn't be right there with me Physically~yet I knew He'd always be watching over me. I feel him protecting me still to this day.
Let him go Robin~tell Him you'll be alright~because that's what he's worried about. You said it yourself that He's worried about all of you, so you need to let him know that he has given you all the strength to take care of each other~~so he can go HOME now and REST !
God Bless you & your entire Family~~you're on my Mind & in my Heart as well as my Prayers. Luv Ya, Su

Su, thank you for sharing your thoughts and advice. I appreciate it very much.

You're Wecome Robin~~
Just remember that I'm here for you if you need me.
I'm sad to say that after Losing: Both set of Grandparents, My Mother & Father,
2 Brothers, a Sister, my FIL and my late Husband~~I know about Death !

I did remind my dh that a Funeral is Cheaper then a Divorce, haven't had anymore problems with him~

Luv Ya, Su

Robin,

I'm glad your grandpa is doing better. I lost my dad last summer. He was 87 years old. I'm the baby of the family so all of my grandparents have been gone for a long time.

Regarding my credits, I did have them transferred and took a spanish class about six years ago. I then took a couple of online classes that I'll be paying for the rest of my life! Very expensive! Now I just have no desire to go back. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!

Hi Ginger,

LOL! It took me a long time to decide what I wanted to be when I grew up, also! I could probably be a career student without any problem! I love learning . . . . about anything and everything.

I don't drink coffee, either. I've always said that coffee was for grown-ups and when I grew up I would drink coffee! Lately I am glad I never started drinking coffee. It would be just one more addiction that I would have to give up!



Robin

I tried coconut oil today for the first time. I put 1 tsp in my hot tea. It was very good. I am going to read up on the benefits of coconut oil and how much I should be taking, etc.

I love this WOE. I don't feel like I am missing out on anything!

Coconut oil is AMAZING! I eat at least a tablespoon a day for my health.