Hi all,
My name is Jenny and I have been LCing for about 5 weeks now. I started off doing my own thing and lost so rapidly that I thought it would be wise to research and follow a plan. After much research I decided Atkins made the most sense to me so I am following DANDR and probably in the OWL phase.
To give you some background, I have always stuggled with body image issues. I am 5'3" and grew up with friends who were all in the 5'7" and up. My size 4 to their size 1 growing up made me feel fat. I know I wasn't but when I was seeing a female doctor for the first time at 18yo I weighed 117# and all muscle, I was a serious athlete. This doc had the nerve to tell me I was at least 10# overweight and should consider taking up and exercise program and diet. So this started me down the path of an eating disorder in college. After becoming a christian I realized that what I was doing was wrong and pursued christian counselling and worked through it. I gain too much weight with pregnancies and then diet and exercise to lose it all. I always have to watch that I don't become obsessed with the process though.
Which brings me to now. Last year I put on 20# due to stress and just really a lack of self control. I hate feeling unhealthy and tired all the time and that is when I started LCing. So I only have 20# to lose and I have lost 16 of it already. I feel great! I am usually hungry all day long and with this WOE I am not. So of course I want to continue forever and not go back to my unhealthy ways. I am eating more veggies than ever before and am actually tasting the flavors in food that were once hidden by sugar and breads.
I am obviously excited and am preaching my new WOE to everyone but this is where it can be dangerous for me. I need balance I need to not obsess. So far so good but I honestly don't know where the line is sometimes. Is my choosing to abstain from foods I know are not good for me being obsessed? Or is it just finally making the wise choices and staying with it? My mom is obese and she says I am getting "too skinny" and doesn't understand why I don't cheat a little. I try to explain that cheating makes me feel bad and isn't good for me. I actually have not cheated in the entire 5 weeks. In the past as I get toward my goals I am always looking for ways to cheat. Of course I was doing low fat, low cal back then.
Sorry for the long post and intro. I hope this makes sense and would appreciate your feedback.