I came from kkland. I need some sanity back. Not from the diet but the
mental control weirdness.
I'm upset ..
Not because perhaps it was a ruse, that she didn't lose the weight (feel sorry for her),
the diet wasn't good (been to too many rodeos to know that 500 or less calories ain't wise), etc, etc.
I'm upset because
it feels like walking on eggshells "over there"
Like I need to disinfect and take a long bath
Like "what? I paid money to be afraid to post in a civil manner
or watch others be denigrated and be too afraid to come to their defense?"
Like being watched all the time
Like what's up with unfriendly ones in the chat over there hanging out
24/7 but won't chat with anyone but recent signups?
I'm upset because one reason I have gained is in reaction to people
trying to control me. Perhaps some of you can relate..perhaps not.
Being secretive, manipulative, controlling is toxic and not good for
my weight loss. Who do you, can you trust?
I'm upset because "what a shame...coulda been a good place"
But mainly I think I'm trying to get healthy and look better and
that place ...makes me have a knot in my stomach, makes me feel uneasy,
makes me question if the empress has no clothes...metaphorically speaking.
Thank you for letting me vent. I wish I felt more relieved right now. Maybe I will
once I press the submit button. Maybe I'm still scared I'll be banned over there.
(Hopefully, not here!) Not trying to be negative just trying to get this off my mind to go on to focus on losing the weight.
Thank you for your time.
