Goodness I have lurked for an hour thinking can i try learn yet another way of eating when my mindset is on starvation mode. For the first time in my life i am not obsessed with eating and the weight is coming off fast. Now I am learning that I am probably doing it all wrong and that I could be harming myself.

I am so confused with this whole mess and don't even know where to start!!


It is 1am in the UK and I am still awake I need to go to bed and face this fresh in the morning.

Hello Alisa and welcome. I hope you are not reading this tonight, it's late in the U.K. so hopefully this will greet you when you wake up in the morning and ready to start again. If you haven't already found this thread, please read

http://www.lowcarbdiscussion.com/index.php...=ST&f=42&t=995&

I think it will help you feel better about things. Best to you!

Hi Ailsa! Itsmee.

It took me quite a few days to feel like I was in the 'groove' again.

I had to remember what it was like when I first started kimkins and was trying to figure everything out. I gave myself room to experiment and get to know how to do it.

BUT.... I am amazed at how much I am learning.. ONCE AGAIN! hahaha

AND you have a big goal in February See ya on the sea!

Morning all. I always feel wierd on US sites it always feels like a ghost town in the morning when I first post.

Well this morning I have to do some running around and drop the boys off at their dad's for the night.

When I get back I will look and digest what I need to eat. Are there any sites that list foods i can and can't eat as not sure when I can get a hold of a book.

I was going to pack and tidy when I got back but I am going to use this time dedicating it to "Losing the healthy low carb way". I will educate myself.

Last night I had a mouthful of cheese and found that I had stayed the same weight this morning I know when I change there will be an increase but i am so scared of losing control and thinking what the heck.

Right must get on I'll be back later when you are all out of bed.

Right I have been out just getting the boys to get their stuff together so we can leave. I am now planning after much deliberating to go to the supermarket on the way out and buy DANDR, I have a copy but it is packed away and I am not searching through a mountain of boxes. When I get back I plan to quickly tidy then read the book to refamilliarise myself with what to do.

I am having a day off thinking about what food to eat and hope that tomorrow I start afresh.

I need to get my frustration out so may do treadmill later.


Right off for the drive on my way back I am going to get some food one of which will be butter!!! I am so scared to even go near it. I might plan chicken cooked in butter for tea.

Welcome to my forum, Ailsa, and it's SO GOOD to see you create a journal here. The edification I will give you today is this: YOU CAN DO IT! Forget what that little demon in your head will tell you...YOU CAN DO IT! Eating 1200+ calories a day, raising your fat to a MINIMUM of 50% of your calories, keeping your carbs limited, and just ENJOYING your low-carb lifestyle will GET YOU THERE! Don't give up, my friend, and please let us know how we can help you along in this journey.

hi alisa!

we are much in the same boat, trying to transition into this new way of eating..and believing it's ok and that it will still work. i am like you with the fears of losing control and gaining weight. so it will be a journey of discovery for us both.

Aw thank you everyone for your support, it means a lot. It is so nice to come to my journal and find someone has commented.

I have just got back from dropping the boys off at their dads and now I plan to curl up with a great book. I managed to get a hold of the DANDR. I am going to make a plan over the next week while I am away in Lincolnshire I come back next Friday so plan to start my new woe then. this week i plan to stick me KK but start increasing my fat in a hope that when i go onto induction it won't be such a shock to my body.

See ya later.

Right well I had read a bit on the induction then fell asleep I must have been tired I think because of this I have not been sleeping well this week.

I woke up and went to the local shop it was funny I stood at the dairy counter and nearly walked away. There was no butter, well I think I have conditioned my brain to blot out butter. It was right there in front of me.

Right just to change my mindset I allowed myself chicken cooked in butter with a tablespoon of cream cheese on it. It was yummy but couldn't eat all of it. My stomache feels over full now.

As I will be in Lincolnshire next week I won't be able to weigh myself so that should be good.

This morning I had a frappecino from starbucks it was wierd not asking for skinny and when they asked if i wanted cream I said yes, how wierd.

well i feel so uncomfortable after eating the chicken I even feel sick!

I realise now i was starving myself on Kimkins.

Well I will try get on here tomorrow.

AILSA!!! i am so glad to see you...

how are things with the move etc? i hope the boys are well!

are u able to access emails etc whilst away? i wondered if you might like to meet for coffee whilst you are near my neck of the woods?!

dont worry if not... this moving to atkins is hard, i have gained a little, im hoping to lose that soon but im trying not to think about it.

i missed you xxx

Right well I am coming back down on Friday but would have the boys with me. But I would still be happy to meet with you on my way back down, it would be afternoon.

I will see also what is happening during the week too I will keep an eye on my emails each day hopefully.

It would be great to meet up.

i can be free friday no problems!

Hi all

Paule that will be great to meet up. I will email you my mobile so we shouldn't have any problems.

I am just off to go and pack ready for my journey and do my hair and make up.

Chris passid his motorbike test a few weeks ago and he got a bike yesterday so as soon as I get there we are going for a ride.

Well on here hope to get on each day but if I'm not don't worry about me.

Happy Sunday.

hi ailsa! WELCOME!

AAGGHHH!! some familiar names and faces!! I moved here also and am trying very hard to get a new mind-set! WHAT? I CAN HAVE REAL BUTTER? LOL
I never had a problem eating it befor. Why is it so hard to wrap my mind around it now? I guess I'm afraid of going to extremes cuz of all the hard work already accomplished.

Eating butter is not "going to extremes," it's just eating right.

Hi all and thanks for stopping by.

I am in Lincolnshire and having a week off dieting and figure even if I put weight on I don't care as when I go onto Atkins I will gain after Kimkins. I am not going mad but just needed a breather to get my mind about what I need to do to start on Monday.

For the first couple of days allowing my "normal" food I felt sick and really uncomfortable. It felt like I was eating food I shouldn't even though they are foods allowed on low carb.

So now I am on a count down to Monday so I am reading up on Induction.

We are going to Wales on the 5th for a long weekend I can't wait as it will be my first family holiday in 5 years as my ex always planned then cancelled at the last minute. Chris has paid for it and he is taking his 2 girls so that will be good.

right just wanted to let you know I am still ok and will be back to normal next week.

Ailsa xxx

Just to let you know I am still alive but having a few struggles adapting, it doesn't help being between Lincolnshire and London every few days.

I am still aiming to get back on track but need to motivate my head.

Hi all

Well I have not been too good recently re food. I know I have an eating disorder and I really need to conquer that.

I cannot stand the lack of control I have when it comes to food . I just pig out when I am very angry and at the moment I think I am carrying alot of anger. Not just at Kimkins but also my Ex Husband. We have only been seperated 1year but i don't think I came to terms with it fully. Don't get me wrong I am happy in general but I think there are some underlying things that I have not dealt with.

I am in a new relationshipwith Chris, ouch I hear you say rebound, but we have known each other 26 years and had a brief relationship 20 years ago before I moved to London from Lincolnshire. His Wife left last November so we are in the same boat and I think in some way God brought us together as it feels so right. We are both happy go lucky we never argue and we just feel so right together. We are not running just walking we don't make too many plans for the future and have not made any comitments, but you know when you are with someone and it just feels so right well that is how it is with us. I hate being apart from him but we have our own space too. Both our kids, (I have 2 boys, he has 2 girls) get on really well. When we contacted each other in January we were both still hurting from the marriage break up, but we got to know each other again and I feel fate has dealt us a chance here. Oh and he is coming on the cruise with me.

Any way I have been between Lincolnshire and London for a few months now and finally found out a friend is going to Thailand for 6 months and said I can use his house until he gets back. I just feel things are happening for a reason and I am just going along with what feels right for me. So I am back in London for 3 days and need to pack so I have told the boys for every box they pack i will give them £1 which is about $2. They are up for it so after this morning, as we are all tired from travelling last night we got back at midnight, we are going to get cracking and pack. . So on the 29th the boys start their new school and we stay at Chris' for one week then move into my friends on the November 3rd.

Both Chris and I have joind a gym as he lost about 70lb when his wife left so he needs to tone up and although I have gym equipment at home I need to go with someone also to stop me getting bored. My friends have also said they want to go swimming on Ladies night when I have moved.

I know once I am moved I will be better emotionally as when I come to London I am alone with no friends and my old friend who is a neighbour also has been horrible to me, dumping rubbish in my garden and making silent calls. I would call the police but I figured I am only here for a short time and I will be gone.

My plan is once I have moved I will plan my eating for the week, also my exercise and get my friends to join me. I am also looking for a job so my self esteem should improve and my independance too. I have the cruise to look forward to so that is really keeping me going.

Hope you are all well and thank you for your continued support.